{Friday, December 30, 2005 . }

This is post number 94... since May 2004 the blog started i have not even hit 100 post... hmmm... tt's besides the point...

Looking back 2005 (i cannot post this on 1 Jan 2006 coz i probably be out...) many things had happened... evaluating the year...

2005 has been an eventful year... this year had been one which stir great emotions and thoughts in my heart... my studies took a turn... for the worse in this year till i totally lost my original class... i've seen people stabbing me in my back... i've had my hopes of making new frens broken by the class i was assigned to... yet in the same year i was assigned to another class which allows me to make new frenz who eventually became my mahjong frenz... haha... now everything is stablising with this group of frenz who is always there to encourage me... not to forget my original frenz from my original class...
my personal life also had a twist to it... i have left Hope Church Singapore, which has been home since May 2001 and on September 2005 i concluded the stay there after consideration... 4 years had pass... i learnt alot in high school east and indeed i've grown alot from HSE6 to HSE8 then HSE7 then HSEB1 all under Priscilla and Gerald and not forgetting my CLs Yao Guo and Apinun... i moved on to Polytechnic group and then moved out of it due to personal reasons... during this time Jaron, Bing Liang, Alvin Stephen tried to dissuade me... thank God for all of you for really caring for me... DY, Zul and many others offered comfort and promised to be there whenever i needed help... thank God for all of you... Bing Liang said this: the fellowship may no longer be there but the relationship stays... i may not be able to fellowship with all of you in the same church but remember... i m still Titus... i m still a brother in Christ with all of you... i m still running the race just in a different track... the relationship we share still stays... and i will be here for u whenever u need me... this i promise u... also in this time leaving Hope (and then when i left TP) i heard rather nasty things about myself... it hurts to even know tt people make nasty remarks about you after spending all the time with them... i know somewhere along the way i had offended you while rubbing shoulders with you and i apologise for tt... but... sigh~
i gotta know new frenz... i've seen old frenz turn their back... i've got frenz whom drew closer yet some whom decided tt i m no longer worthy to befren them... i've seen my fren marry and give birth... i've seen many things tt convinced me tt i m now no longer the young boy tt i once know... it is time to move on and be my age... i belong to the 20 age group... and this time calls for some thanksgiving too...

Douglas: thanks for being there... for listening... for sharing... for loving me as i am... ever since sec sch u had been a great support as a fren to me... although we all have moved on from sec sch, u had not forsaken me... thanks...
Ally: we all have our own lifes to live and interestingly, no body would expect tt from tt setting we know each other... close ties like this can be forged... thank you for allowing me to be part of ur life and for being part of my life...
Jeslyn: thanks for trusting me... for allowing me to go closer... i may not have been the fren tt u expected and piss u off so many times yet u are willing to accept me...
Mun Hong: thanks for all the fun and laughter... i may not be available all the time and i may be irritating most of the time... thanks for remembering me and including me...
Jaron: u have been a very dear brother who despite it all continue to trust me and allow me to be who i m... thanks for all u've done...
DY: u trusted me so much yet i turned my back so quickly... still u continue to trust in the brotherhood we share... thanks for being there...
Zul: i never knew how close we are till i heard something from Jaron... thanks for being a brother... thanks for allowing me to impact ur life...
SP Unit: i'm sorry things took tt turn but still i thank you all for the warmth u shared despite all of it... thank you for sharing ur life with me in the past year tt i m with u... thanks for the fellowship and for the lessons tt helped me grow...
those from Hope: thanks for being a family... although there are times i rubbed ur shoulders too hard or stepped on ur toes too many times... u still trust me and help me along the way... thanks for all...
Cheling, Siok Rou, Siew Lan: when the rest of the class decides to keep a surface relationship with me (except for a group who decides tt i m better off dead) u all continue to trust me to be frenz and classmates...
2A/21(AY04/05): thanks for teaching me to be careful when interacting with people
1A/24(AY04/05): thanks for including me and allowing me to be part of ur class... special thanks to Allan, Chao Cheng, Qiu Song, Zong Xing and Alvin(right? i m real bad with names)...
All my other frenz whom i have not named: it is not tt i dun wanna name u... but given my memory and the condition i m in... i may not be able to name ur name here... this does not mean u r not important... u r equally important to me... thank God for all of u...
and one more person... which i decided not to post here... i will tell Him personally...

come 2006... i will try my best to be there for all my lessons, to retire from all my debts and to serve God in Marine Parade Christian Centre...

now playing: Casting Crowns - Who Am I

timtitus fishing at 6:40 pm
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