{Monday, July 18, 2005 . }

i guess everyone is stressed up by school and term test... i m wif my classmates now in the library... they are playing games trying to destress... while me... here i m after my econs paper... easier than i expected but i made a big mistake... i drew the graph wrongly... thank God he gave me the wisdom to discover it before it is too late... muahahahahahahaha...

i've been tellin a lot of pple that things are much better now... i may not know how my grandpa is now.. but sometimes... no news is good news... at least things are as it was which is why there is no updates... my CT project is over, not very well done but it is over... my PMM is ok... and wad is left now is my greenwave with the gals... today is the first paper then wednesday ECT, thursday PMM and friday PM1 then the term test is over... term break is coming...

have not been to school after my last presentation on monday... tuesday, wednesday did not go school without MC... have to explain to Lee and Chin coz they have been very concern with my attendance... thursday suppose to go for GEMs... but i kinda decided to give up on tt GEM and take 2 next sem...

ask to be involved in a mini production on sat... rehearsals today, tuesday and sat...

things are ok now... can breath liao... i now look forward to sleeping after all these... thinsg are beginning to smooth out... i survived...

now playing point of grace - keep the candle burning

timtitus fishing at 4:13 pm
------ {Wednesday, July 13, 2005 . }

This suck... i mean it... everything now suck... my grandfather is in a stage so critical that he fell into cardiac arrest a few nites back... although i get my phone back... the debt cause by the phone is bad... and my paternal grandma will think i m wastin money... if i say i lost my phone she will nag... my aunt is pressursing me a lot... my relationship wif my classmates has hit rock bottom... been missing a lot of lessons... projects stress although relief are at a high price of many overnight typing and rushin... resulting in taxi to school if i even wake up for school... July is a bad month... a real bad month... honestly... the only thing tt is holding me together is the idea that God is allow all these for the good of me... and the limited knowledge of me cannot see as far as God can... at my point of view... this suck...

now playing [YWJX - Tian Kong (Sky)]

timtitus fishing at 4:07 pm
------ {Sunday, July 03, 2005 . }

this is real bad... it is taking a toil on me...then again which day doesn't? seriously then...

5th July PMM due
7th July CRS due
11th July Con Tech due
18th July Start of Term Test
27th July Greenwave due

not tt bad wad u may think... well this is the catch:
Con TEch have not started yet, we were just given the info say 1 week plus ago and we have to give a 5 min presentation and report... and it is not tt easy...
Greenwave key component not really working as expected... after running ard in circles and having hopes tt it could really work.... tada~ it doesn't...
adding on to it...
Grandpa may not be able to pull thru... infection in lungs and collaspe left lung and stuff...
handphone cannot be connected until i clear my bills which wif last mth should hit abt 200+
the new hp tt is being auctioned for should cost abt 205...
i have no money for anything now...
Aunt pressuring me to cut my hair, show her all my results and handphone bills... with my grandma's support... i cannot say no... and my very 'kind and loving' dad who dun really care just push his responsibility to someone who is willing to take over and did not help me wif anything regarding this...

but God assured me yesterday with Alan's sermon... i m gonna trust tt God has the best plan for me... plans to prosper me and give me a future... i really dunno how things are gonna go... but i m gonna trust Him... been surviving in this almost dysfunctional family for 19plus years...

wanna thank God for my sheep who ahs been supportive and sacrificial all these while... thank God for my CL who has never stop showing me concern and my shepherd who has never stopped worrying for me...

Happy Birthday Lennon... it has been a year in SP and thruout tis year... u never fail to trust me to grow and do things at my own pace... it is disappointing to you my results, and some stuff... but i m working on it... i know many things... but i need time to bring them into my heart... i will strive towards maturity... wanna thank God for you for not giving up hopes on me... as much as things are tough and difficult, you always held onto to the idea tt one day i will wake up... i m trying... not good enough i know... but i m... may ur new year with God be filled with exciting and meaningful moments, fruitful challenging and God's abundant blessings... continue to lead SP from glory to greater glory...

i'm tired...

now playing - jaci velasquez imagine me without you

timtitus fishing at 10:13 am
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