{Tuesday, November 01, 2005 . }

many things happened when i made that decision to leave...

i got many reactions and many calls which i avoided... all because i dunno wad to say... or rather how to face them and talk about things without blowing my top and without sounding insincere... i also needed time to think and be sure... when i met Zul for a haircut the other day... i kinda knew i was ready... and sure...

met Jaron after work on sunday to talk things out and gotta see how much he cares and wanna see the best in me... got msg from many others too who, altho hope that this was not the final decision, wished me all the best and offered to be there if i really need help in anything... and i really thank God for all of them... Jaron and all who offered...

i told Jaron the main reason for leaving and he told me the pain he and many others are going thru becoz of it... mainly becoz i did it so suddenly... and he was right... i've seen pple do tt and feel the pain... i nvr thought i will be dealing out the pain to others... those who love and care for me...

this is a dedication to all who matter to me:

Friends Without End
Looking back at all that's past
Thinking of good times that last
Missing all we share and hold
As we watch each other grow old

I held u tight i held u near
I never fail to call you dear
Loving u and showing my care
Together we had many things to share

But now as we run our races apart
You know you are never far from my heart
As I paused to ponder and think
I know our bond will never sink

I'll miss you like i always did
And u know that i've never hid
Anytime u need me there
u know when u call, i'll be there

I thank u for anything it may be
And everything you've done for me
For the sweet words that made me fly
And what you did that held me high

Thank you friend I wun forget
After all the things we grasp
Now apart but never separated
Away but never divided
My friend always without end

this is esp for 2 person... one whom i've written a letter to and the other who had always been a great support to me and never failed to be by my side... to spur me and stuff... to Jaron and guys for that concern u have no matter wad happens... to the gals who cared... to those whom i matter to... thanks for once being there...

this decision reached was made after careful consideration... and another will be made when the time comes... pray for me... that God will really reveal His plans for me... stay strong for His sake too... i know the pain i brought... but i know the healing He has to offer is stronger and more powerful than any pain...

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timtitus fishing at 9:12 am
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