{Sunday, July 03, 2005 . }

this is real bad... it is taking a toil on me...then again which day doesn't? seriously then...

5th July PMM due
7th July CRS due
11th July Con Tech due
18th July Start of Term Test
27th July Greenwave due

not tt bad wad u may think... well this is the catch:
Con TEch have not started yet, we were just given the info say 1 week plus ago and we have to give a 5 min presentation and report... and it is not tt easy...
Greenwave key component not really working as expected... after running ard in circles and having hopes tt it could really work.... tada~ it doesn't...
adding on to it...
Grandpa may not be able to pull thru... infection in lungs and collaspe left lung and stuff...
handphone cannot be connected until i clear my bills which wif last mth should hit abt 200+
the new hp tt is being auctioned for should cost abt 205...
i have no money for anything now...
Aunt pressuring me to cut my hair, show her all my results and handphone bills... with my grandma's support... i cannot say no... and my very 'kind and loving' dad who dun really care just push his responsibility to someone who is willing to take over and did not help me wif anything regarding this...

but God assured me yesterday with Alan's sermon... i m gonna trust tt God has the best plan for me... plans to prosper me and give me a future... i really dunno how things are gonna go... but i m gonna trust Him... been surviving in this almost dysfunctional family for 19plus years...

wanna thank God for my sheep who ahs been supportive and sacrificial all these while... thank God for my CL who has never stop showing me concern and my shepherd who has never stopped worrying for me...

Happy Birthday Lennon... it has been a year in SP and thruout tis year... u never fail to trust me to grow and do things at my own pace... it is disappointing to you my results, and some stuff... but i m working on it... i know many things... but i need time to bring them into my heart... i will strive towards maturity... wanna thank God for you for not giving up hopes on me... as much as things are tough and difficult, you always held onto to the idea tt one day i will wake up... i m trying... not good enough i know... but i m... may ur new year with God be filled with exciting and meaningful moments, fruitful challenging and God's abundant blessings... continue to lead SP from glory to greater glory...

i'm tired...

now playing - jaci velasquez imagine me without you

timtitus fishing at 10:13 am
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