{Saturday, November 17, 2007 . }

it has been almost a year since i last posted...

gosh it has been so long... i forgot my log in username and password =x

so... the year has passed, i've left my job in settlers (for good probably... but then again...) gt enlisted, finished bmt, finish M113 driving course and now having my section and platoon course...

many things happened...

i lost track of myself, of time and of everything that should really matter...

people came, people left, people changed yet everything is still status quo for me...

i'm 22... turning 23... my biological clock is ticking... i'm beginning to fear for my future...

funny how we always wanna grow up, onli to wish we were young again... how we always hope to be up there, onli to desire to go back to the start... at work i was promoted to the highest position a staff can be, onli to wish that i can go back to be a lowly staff... in camp i ended my stint as a recruit, onli to desire my recruit life... in life i m now an adult, onli to look back and envy being a child...

how easy was it then, when u really trust the people around you... when you have nothing to worry but homework... when responsibilities never hound you... how simple was it then when life is all about school and friends... when events are onli in the morning or night... when you onli need to spend about $1 a day for recess...

childlikeness is a gift... it is wad makes a person so attractive... when you see things as a child, simple; not threatening and excited... when you treat people like how a child would, always trusting, open and intimate... when you are clear and see things for what they are and people for who they are... we lose all these when we grow up... children... they are so excited when they walk around, when they can run about but as we grow up... we hate walking and running, we take cabs wherever we go...

i envy childlike people around me... people who sees each day as an adventure and not a chore... people like sgt mok, han xin, douglas... i lost it... and i hope you pple dun... it is a gift... treasure it...

sigh~

now playing - s.h.e. - bu xiang zhang da

timtitus fishing at 9:01 pm
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