{Friday, December 30, 2005 . }

This is post number 94... since May 2004 the blog started i have not even hit 100 post... hmmm... tt's besides the point...

Looking back 2005 (i cannot post this on 1 Jan 2006 coz i probably be out...) many things had happened... evaluating the year...

2005 has been an eventful year... this year had been one which stir great emotions and thoughts in my heart... my studies took a turn... for the worse in this year till i totally lost my original class... i've seen people stabbing me in my back... i've had my hopes of making new frens broken by the class i was assigned to... yet in the same year i was assigned to another class which allows me to make new frenz who eventually became my mahjong frenz... haha... now everything is stablising with this group of frenz who is always there to encourage me... not to forget my original frenz from my original class...
my personal life also had a twist to it... i have left Hope Church Singapore, which has been home since May 2001 and on September 2005 i concluded the stay there after consideration... 4 years had pass... i learnt alot in high school east and indeed i've grown alot from HSE6 to HSE8 then HSE7 then HSEB1 all under Priscilla and Gerald and not forgetting my CLs Yao Guo and Apinun... i moved on to Polytechnic group and then moved out of it due to personal reasons... during this time Jaron, Bing Liang, Alvin Stephen tried to dissuade me... thank God for all of you for really caring for me... DY, Zul and many others offered comfort and promised to be there whenever i needed help... thank God for all of you... Bing Liang said this: the fellowship may no longer be there but the relationship stays... i may not be able to fellowship with all of you in the same church but remember... i m still Titus... i m still a brother in Christ with all of you... i m still running the race just in a different track... the relationship we share still stays... and i will be here for u whenever u need me... this i promise u... also in this time leaving Hope (and then when i left TP) i heard rather nasty things about myself... it hurts to even know tt people make nasty remarks about you after spending all the time with them... i know somewhere along the way i had offended you while rubbing shoulders with you and i apologise for tt... but... sigh~
i gotta know new frenz... i've seen old frenz turn their back... i've got frenz whom drew closer yet some whom decided tt i m no longer worthy to befren them... i've seen my fren marry and give birth... i've seen many things tt convinced me tt i m now no longer the young boy tt i once know... it is time to move on and be my age... i belong to the 20 age group... and this time calls for some thanksgiving too...

Douglas: thanks for being there... for listening... for sharing... for loving me as i am... ever since sec sch u had been a great support as a fren to me... although we all have moved on from sec sch, u had not forsaken me... thanks...
Ally: we all have our own lifes to live and interestingly, no body would expect tt from tt setting we know each other... close ties like this can be forged... thank you for allowing me to be part of ur life and for being part of my life...
Jeslyn: thanks for trusting me... for allowing me to go closer... i may not have been the fren tt u expected and piss u off so many times yet u are willing to accept me...
Mun Hong: thanks for all the fun and laughter... i may not be available all the time and i may be irritating most of the time... thanks for remembering me and including me...
Jaron: u have been a very dear brother who despite it all continue to trust me and allow me to be who i m... thanks for all u've done...
DY: u trusted me so much yet i turned my back so quickly... still u continue to trust in the brotherhood we share... thanks for being there...
Zul: i never knew how close we are till i heard something from Jaron... thanks for being a brother... thanks for allowing me to impact ur life...
SP Unit: i'm sorry things took tt turn but still i thank you all for the warmth u shared despite all of it... thank you for sharing ur life with me in the past year tt i m with u... thanks for the fellowship and for the lessons tt helped me grow...
those from Hope: thanks for being a family... although there are times i rubbed ur shoulders too hard or stepped on ur toes too many times... u still trust me and help me along the way... thanks for all...
Cheling, Siok Rou, Siew Lan: when the rest of the class decides to keep a surface relationship with me (except for a group who decides tt i m better off dead) u all continue to trust me to be frenz and classmates...
2A/21(AY04/05): thanks for teaching me to be careful when interacting with people
1A/24(AY04/05): thanks for including me and allowing me to be part of ur class... special thanks to Allan, Chao Cheng, Qiu Song, Zong Xing and Alvin(right? i m real bad with names)...
All my other frenz whom i have not named: it is not tt i dun wanna name u... but given my memory and the condition i m in... i may not be able to name ur name here... this does not mean u r not important... u r equally important to me... thank God for all of u...
and one more person... which i decided not to post here... i will tell Him personally...

come 2006... i will try my best to be there for all my lessons, to retire from all my debts and to serve God in Marine Parade Christian Centre...

now playing: Casting Crowns - Who Am I

timtitus fishing at 6:40 pm
------ {Tuesday, December 13, 2005 . }

term test is kinda breezy except ECT&P coz i never expected those questions... well... i did not know tt focus will be on Roof and Finishes i focus quite a lot on floor and others... of coz roof also but not so much...
Contract was ok... open book... not expecting to score coz open book=strict marking
Material is kinda easy partly coz of the hint but mainly coz i listened in class during revision... hahahahahahahaha...
tmr builind service is kinda easy coz of physics backgrd...

then i'm free!

found this and i like it a lot...

Frances Ong (“First a wife, then a career woman”, July 5, 2005, TODAY) believes in tradition. Comparing the divorce rate, she observed that people from the past are less likely to end their marriage as compared to modern women. One reason she identified is the fact that women, being financially independent, are less likely to be willing to work at a marriage when problems arise. Wanting equal rights and having the backing of the law, women now see obedience to their husbands as subservience. They are no longer willing to submit to their husbands willingly but see submission as subservience instead. The writer, using her life story, explained how serious the problem can get. She also showed that the “obsolete” values of her grandfather may not be as obsolete as it seems.

I agree with the writer that women should focus on being a wife. The priority of a woman should always be her family. Looking back into the past, women have always submitted to their husband willingly. Stories from the older generation tell of how women are willing to follow their husband, even till death. Many women, including my grandmother, kept her vow to ‘belong’ to her husband, even though they have many opportunities to find a new partner after my grandfather passed away. Few marriages from that generation ended up in separation. They held onto each other firmly and walked through the journey of life together, the wife in submission and the husband with responsibility. The wife’s only concern is her family and marriages with that kind of mentality last.

Comparing with the past, women now no longer give that much attention on the family life. They demand as much, if not more rights and privileges, as men. Society is giving women more reasons to ask for these rights. Pubs and bars offer ladies nights. Banks offer women’s cards. All these, giving women more choices, draw the women away from their duties in the family. They now desire authority and glory. They now want the masculine role to be fairly shared. They now want to be equal to men. With these wants, they had already forsaken the female’s primary role, to take charge of the family.

There is a Chinese saying “Men are in charge of the exterior and women, the interior”. There are predefined roles for both men and women and I feel that they should keep to their own duties. Some traditions will never be obsolete.


Timothy Titus Lin Tinghe
DPFM/FT/2B/24
0455006
07 July 2005

wrote this for a module and while cleaning up my account in school i found it so wanna share... comments in the tagboard yeah? i still dunno how to activate the comments on the posting...

internet has been down at home... i can only use it in school and today i m staying back specially to use the computer in school... i wan a new comp (not tt i need one or aford one...) so thus the late msg to...

DEBORAH LIM DUAN NI!!! (surprise to see ur name here in caps?)
just wanna drop a little well wish to u...
YOU ARE 20!!! welcome to the club (dun u just hate me? haha)
indeed, for the past 4 yaers i known you, you had been a gal who had never fail to cheer me up with ur hohoho and ur hahahaha... but apart from that u had been a very encouraging fren and support to many people around you... gentle in spirit yet offer firmness to many things you do...
as you conclude ur 20th year and march into ur 21st year... may ur days be filled with joy and laughter, fun and blessings... may u live life to the fullest enjoying every moment of it... may He pour out so abundant u will never lack even if u bless others abundantly (hint hint: me)...
HAPPY and BLESSED BIRTHDAY!!! enjoy ur 21st year and come 9 Dec 2006 u will be an adult... (yes i m reminding u how old u r...)

timtitus fishing at 1:48 pm
------ {Tuesday, December 06, 2005 . }

ok... now tt i dun have the hotdog on my hand (read previous entry) it is much easier to update... the last time i got my brother polishing his boots and makin a lot of noise and of coz due to the fact tt i'm eating hotdogs... i cannot update...

expanding on the previous entry...
went to deborah's b'day and got her two gifts assuming i wun get to see her on christmas... 2 necklace and a braclet... it is not a set (yes i read ur blog) just tt i packed it up tt way... dunno if she liked it but it will have to do... cannot change the presents right? (not tt i will if i can... *whistles*

really glad to meet winnie and cherie on the birthday gathering (i decided it is not really a party but a gathering...) and met the legendary andy... of coz i met my potential classmates and there was once the whole group set down together to talk... about food, blogs, gals cutting their asses and many stuff... they seem nice... of coz winnie cherie and i toked about other things and i gotta enjoy myself in their company...

to think of it... my birthday was never really properly celebrated... maybe next year i just have a gathering of frenz... no celebration... and really presents are not important... ur presence will be enough... i dun wan it to be like this yr's b'day... very sad abt it... dun ask wad happened... really... never mind...

really happy for cherie and deborah for finding their soulmates... of coz cherie i know all along (i read ur blog too!) and had been feeling happy for her... then deborah too... glad tt they have found someone whom they can rely on and spend time with... really happy for u gals... suddenly i felt lonely... hmmmm...

friday and sunday work... till 11pm... very tiring... so much so tt today (monday) i no go school... woke up real late... then went to take money from my grams and hear her nag and nag till i was late meeting jes... toked abt many stuff and well enjoyed myself with her... watch harry potter with her then went home... got home almost quarrel with my dad again but well i chose to ignore him and shut myself in the room till i m confident he is no longer outside and now updating this blog in peace...

wondering... this blog seldom has comments about things happening... m i a safe person? do i avoid making comments and giving views? or is it becoz i dun have any... i dunno... tis is a boring blog... haha... maybe i should be like xiaxue or my frenz who comments on practically anything... but then again... i could be charged... i m turning 21... wad's more... a 17 got charged so wad abt my age? scary~

now playing speed - walking in the rain

timtitus fishing at 1:48 am
------ {Sunday, December 04, 2005 . }

tis is tough... one hand hold hotdog to eat one hand typing... hotdog from deborah... haha...

it was interesting to attend deborah b'day... met with my-could-be-classmates (deborah is so gonna kill me... haha) and cherie and winnie and debbie and andy... we toked about a lot of things... including some tt could get us charged (so... will the authorities come and interrogate us? hmmm...) nice meeting all of them... i shan't go into details wad was spoken about... dun wanna get into any trouble =X had fun though... catching up with her and cherie and winnie...

school is ok... exams coming... not prepared... so monday gonna propose to my yr 1 classmates about studying together... they had been a very interesting and fun bunch of people to hang out with... i dun feel tt bad anymore... to think of the times when i was with 21... things are real bad... same yr 1 students but treat me very differently... (will i get charge for saying this?)

just watched polar express and almost cried... haha... very gan dong... very nice... if can u peeps should watch it...

seriously... i dun really know wad to write here now... coz 1)authority cramming (is it too direct) 2)brain dead...

anyways... happy birthday deborah... and Larina too!

now playing: more to this life

timtitus fishing at 12:25 am
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