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Friday, February 04, 2005
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it is feb already?!?! where did the month go?
i just had a hair cut... bought 3 shirts, 1 jeans and a pair of shoes... survived thru the month wif real bad attendence and the start of term test... so this is Jan in a summary...
the beginning of feb is real bad...
2 days ago... i pissed of Jaron and Jason and Yang Zhou... brought them to walk ard far east suppose to get a haircut... at the end... nothing... feel really bad... at least the latter 2 got their stuff... Jaron left empty handed... i really feel bad... now also dun really ask him out already... coz... i scared i might piss him further...today first time guys only caregrp... and i screw up the worship... did not really control the flow and well... the worship is not ministering... or is it my life gt prob... tt i cannot lead a ministering worship... Wad is wrong? sigh~
Yong Xian and John are getting on my nerves... i mean... i really wan them to grow and be responsive... why can't they see the eternal stuff... why do they alwyas put temporal stuff first... Yong Xian i kept tellin him... gonna give him a piece of my mind this sat during shepherding... John... well i find it hard to meet him and follow up on him... wad is wrong wif me... can't seem to be doing much and these small things i also cannot do it well... pissin my leaders off wif my latecoming and my absence and also being hard to contact...
let's be open... a while ago... i was thinking if i should go back to my first church... the one tt i go before i convert... they are building up their student's ministry and outreach... this is the story in brief: i was back there wif my grams on sun some time back and while she is having her mandarin service... i was wondering the compund till i reach the multi-purpose hall of their church... then i saw them having a little carnival... and from the posters and stuff tt they put up and wad their leaders said... it can be seen tt they are turning their focus from family church setting to youth evangelism... then this thought suddenly came into my mind... since i know so much... why not help them... and knowing me... i always allow my thoughts to drift... till the idea of going back and helping them came up... i dunno... i love it here... so i m gonna do more for God here... it is just a thought... bleah~
not sleeping tonight... coz i need to be up early in the morning... gonna go parkway buy breakfast... then go to sch... take my BSI test then go for my Gems then go out wif my fren after evax wif caleb and grp... so i must stay awake... and while i m doing tt... i edited my blog layout... nice rite? my dog cute rite... can feed it... but dun over do it... might change it soon... to cat or penguin... haha...
the song i m listening to now makes me wanna laugh sometimes... listen carefully to its first line when u gt a chance to... "woke up early this morning made my coffin like i always do" (Kimberly Locke 8th World Wonder)... change song liao...
now playing{Charmed OST How Soon Is Now - Love Spit Love}
timtitus fishing at 4:25 am
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